It Ain't Me Babe

Warning Read only when you have read the book!
This book is definitely one of those books that i will remember. It was such a whirlwind from the beginning to end. It was definitely out of my comfort zone. I don't normally gravitate toward motorcycle themed books. But it was such an adrenaline rush. First off we have two very different characters yet similar. They both struggle from issues within themselves. River/Styx suffers from a stuttering problem. Salome/Mae is traumatized from the things she seen and had to face in the Order. Both broken souls fighting to make some semblance of normalcy in their life. River meets Salome at a very young age in his life. He was supposed to stay in the car while his father disposed of bodies......o.0....i know. Anyways he obviously doesn't listen and then wanders around the forest until he comes across this fence. As he looks closer he then meets Salome and there folks we have the first meeting. We later find that Salome escapes from her wedding to the Prophet and gets injured whilst escaping. After she makes it of there she manages to flag down a car and they drop her at the nearest building which so happens to be Styx's clubhouse coincidence i think not. Anyways and the story only escalates from there. The thing i loved most about this book was the way the author was able to really combine two completely different worlds and manage to weave both so effortlessly. On one hand you have the so called pure/holy rollers and on the other hand we have the sinners. And we learn from this book not to judge. They use the word of God so they can justify their pedophilia fetishes in the light of the greater good. While the Hangmen are sinners they have each others backs. When River and Mae came together finally might i add it was such a beautiful thing to see because they both balance each other out. Mae calms River and he offers the protection and safety she needs. These characters stories were so beautiful to read. If you enjoy a truly emotional and adrenaline pumping story then this is the book for you. Thank you Tillie Cole for creating such a wonderful story. 
Favorite Quotes   “You have light within you, Styx, and I feel it shining through like the rays of the midday sun. It is beautiful. You are a good man.” Mae

"Fuck me. Those eyes. Even through all the blood, mud, and shit on her face, those eyes fuckin' shone - ice-blue, like a goddamn wolfs. Only seen one pair of eyes like that before..." - Styx 

       

 

The Resurrection of Aubrey Miller

Wow...I..started...this..book...this...morning and now its 12:47 AM. Seriously time flies when its a really good book. Honestly this was such a beautiful book. Having read Running on Empty and Recovery as well I knew L.B. Simmons would not disappoint me. This book is just a huge and emotional journey so grab your Kleenex and your snuggly blankets and get ready for the ride of your life. So the story talks about Aubrey who we later find on has dealt with a lot of loss in her life. So she protects her self by dressing up as a goth. She hopes that her mask would keep people from approaching her. And we also learn that its her freshman year in college oh the good ol' days haha not. When i started the book i was very skeptical as to how those contacts would look like and wouldn't they be uncomfortable. Anyways on to the serious stuff. Oh the inner monologue that Raven/Aubrey would have with herself is hilarious especially when she first met Quinn or aka princess Fifi. I almost died just reading that. And little did we know princess Fifi would actually be such an amazing character to read about. Oh and *cue big sigh* Kaeleb man where do i even begin with this man he's like cotton candy. Ugh he's everything a book boyfriend should be. He's so patient and how can i forgot HILARIOUS that on its own wins a lot of brownie points with me. Throughout this whole story everything flowed so effortlessly. First of all this woman pulls all this emotions out of like a magician. Within the first couple of pages you could feel the hostility of Raven/Aubrey. Then the witty banter between her,Quinn,Kaeleb. My favorite scene in the book was with the swear jar (i swear me and my sister need that sometimes we curse like sailors.) There were parts in the book that i literally felt the pain and anguish of Raven/Aubrey. Those parts i had to take a step back and breathe. I could only imagine how hard it was for L.B. Simmons. The amazing thing about this author was the ability to weave all the characters so effortlessly that and their development was off the charts for me. I think the most important thing you can take out of this book and incorporate it in life is two things; one don't ever live to the standards of anyone else but yourself. Two live life to the fullest. Seriously go out and fall in love get hurt a 100 times and get up 100 times more. This book seriously really is thought provoking and so well written. And yes you will fall in love with Kaeleb there is no doubt about it. On that note thank you L.B. Simmons for writing a book that made me laugh cry swoon all in the same sentence. Pick this book up you literally won't regret it.  
Kaeleb
                                                 
                    











Raven/Aubrey









   
Quinn











Favorite Quotes 
“I hope that one day you’ll find that source of light and let it heal you, too. Because if you do, it will illuminate your path and eventually lead you home. To me.”-Kaeleb

“It seems what people try to represent on the outside very rarely mirrors their inside. Beautiful people tend to be ugly, ugly people tend to be beautiful, storms tend to brew below a person’s cool, calm exterior, and tremendously happy people tend to be overcompensating for their own grief. Nothing is ever really what it seems.”-Raven/Aubrey 

“You guys are gonna get married! I just know it!”-Quinn 

“You know, if the sun and the moon were to actually collide, it would set off a cataclysmic reaction of epic proportions. Are you ready to have your world completely obliterated?”-Kaeleb 

Favorite Song to listen to whilst reading this book-  
Human-Christina Perri 
Lonely Child-Christina Perri 

Finding Faith

Now where to begin with Finding Faith. I started this book about a month ago and dropped it because the mood wasn't right for me to read it. In anticipation of the release of Convincing Constance. But let me tell you i felt like a huge fool when i recently picked it back up and finished it. Ever get these moments where you wanna kick yourself for not trying or doing something earlier...yea..well that's what i felt with this book. Now onto the juicy details. This book is a part of a series called The Blow Hole Boys. The first two books in the series are called Perfecting Patience and Playing Patience. It focuses on the guitarist Zeke and his leading lady Patience. Now I truly enjoyed the first two books in the series and when i heard about Finn getting his own story i was like......hell yeah sign me up. I was very curious as to why Finn acted the way he did. Let me tell you this story did not disappoint. Faith the leading lady of the story is your good preacher girl. Now the feels i had for this couple was crazy. First of all Faith is such a strong girl. (warning will contain spoilers enter at your own risk) I mean staying strong after her father beat her. She was so brave she didn't let him break her. Finn gets caught doing graffiti which we find out wasn't really his fault. He just got caught at the wrong place at the wrong time. He has to do community service in a church i wonder what church could he possibly be volunteering at. Oh thats right Faith's church. So when they first meet Finn thinks Faith is an angel which is cute. As the days go on they grow closer and she finds out that he's not that bad of a person. Finn he's the definition of a bad boy. Man he melted me with his words and his tenderness. Of course it wouldn't be a good book without a villain. Well it's Faith's father surprise surprise. Now this man i wanted to reach into the book and slap him with one of his belts. Her father thinks he's the spawn of the devil. After the horrifying accident with two of his band mates and Faith's friend, daddy dearest thought it was best to move Faith to California. Of course Faith was like "hell no dad i'm not going to the Valley nope not without my hunky man." and he was like "oh really well guess what you are or else i'm throwing him in jail". And of course as readers we were all like oh hell no you didn't just say that everything from then on was expected. Of course with the letters we all thought that for sure her father wrote i wasn't expecting her mother at all. Now the biggest shock of the century was when Faith got pregnant with Jimmy. Like i told you guys this girl is no joke. She really gave me the courage to do the scary things in life cause they end up being the most significant decision in your life. This book was really awesome and i absolutely loved it 
Finn                                                Faith

Favorite Quotes  If it looks like a sinner and talks like a sinner, then it must be a sinner. And one thing I knew about the stranger in front of me was that he was made for sin. - Faith

Love In English

Oh gosh where do i even begin with this book it was such a whirlwind romance and i loved every bit of it. Gosh where do i start with Vera she was such a lovable character. you could literally feel her pain and struggle. Ugh and Mateo is he even real....wait of course not... but just imagine if he was every woman on this planet would be content...sigh a girl could dream. Anyways back to the juicy stuff like how i couldn't believe that her family treated her like that especially her sister. I totally understand her need to run from everything just that amount of hostility and someone always waiting for you to mess up it takes a toll on a person. And the irony isn't lost on me with her father i feel like he should have contributed more to the relationship with his children. Maybe Vera wouldn't have ended up that way. Another thing i would like to touch up on is while this is a very touchy topic i believe it was executed in the best way possible. Sometimes i don't understand why people make choices that make their life miserable. Life's short and i say live it to the fullest as cliché as that sounds its true why make life harder on yourself. The many things i loved about Mateo was that he truly loved Vera with all his heart and love has no barriers. I wish we were able to see more of their relationship unfold and them doing mundane things together(secretly hoping for a novella) ;) The only thing that frustrated me about Mateo was that he should have handled Vera with much care although he also had a lot on his plate, he wasn't the one being called whore. And although i understand what they did was wrong i still feel that they were meant to be with each other. They poured light in each others dark hole. Once a wise person told me (probably some character from TV) the heart wants what the heart wants and there are no stopping it. So go into this book knowing that logic be damned. Don't judge it because there is adultery in there that means its going to be a bad book not the case at all. it just means that the rainbows and daises are going to be harder to achieve. Sigh on that note i'm still reeling from this book and want to visit Spain one day who knows maybe Mateo is waiting there hahaha i kid i kid or am i ?.... A job well done Ms.Karina Halle you have blew my mind again. I always had a thing for soccer players now this just confirms it. 
Mateo

 Vera

Favorite Quotes “Love is like a thief, it robs you of all thought and logic, and all you have left is a heart that you can only pray is strong enough to survive the rest.” 

“He looks at you like…like you’re his favorite food.”

“Hope was a dangerous thing, I knew, but it didn’t stop your heart from latching on to it like a life raft.”

Favorite Song During the book: Hot Hands by Darius 

Stripped

So i recently read Stripped By Jasinda Wilder. I was anxiously waiting for this books release. I went into to the book with high expectations and unfortunately was brought down. I was really excited with the plot but i thought that it could have been extended a little more. It talks about Grey Amundsen a girl from Georgia , She is a pastors daughter so she was brought up in a very sheltered life and taught that love or intimacy is sin. She just wanted to dance in a studio and that took him a lot to give in. Her mother was the bridge that gaped the two of them together. After taking a couple classes she found that she had a love and passion for film and her teacher encouraged to enroll in an institute for film. Her father refused. ...... I shall leave you there. *Spoiler Alert* After her father refused which of course i wanted to hit him in the face, like seriously your wife died and instead of embracing your daughter and comforting her, he shuts her down and disowns her what kind of malarkey is that !. There are a lot of parts in the book that made really cringe and moments where i was like what the hell is going on. But I sincerely was upset when she kept on explaining the leering looks they would give her.  For example when she couldn't find any job like there is just no jobs whatsoever so i'm sitting here like its kind of possible and not so possible. The book has potential it just need more expansion on the details. There were parts that i really loved and parts i couldn't begin to get a grasp on. I liked Dawson but i felt like they didn't go into their dynamic of their relationship which is key to any book. For me personally i needed to see a struggle or a conflict before we jump to marriage. They should know each other in and out before marrying them. There were a couple of scenes where i thought was really beautiful and should have a little more written about. The scene when they were both sleeping together and she said he was like her home. I enjoyed the book but i felt like there should have written a lot more on. I felt the story line was a little rushed. If it was expanded it could have been more juice to the smoothie ya know.  All in all its a good book but it could have been more to the story. 

Rock Chick

Sorry for being a little MIA lately... I have been enjoying too much books and ones that will throw you for the ride of your life and end up looking a hot

mess of emotions and you are just exhausted ....yup that's how i felt after reading Rock Chick by Katie Ashley. Anyways onto the juicy details where there may or may not contain spoilers read at your own risk! So in this wonderful novel we meet Indy Savage she's your little feisty heroine. She owns a used bookstore passed down from her grandmother. Her father is a cop and she is a really big rock fan. Moving along she has been trying to get the attention of Liam "Lee" Nightingale for a while now ever since she was five years old... not that long of a time... Anyways it only takes one of her employees who has made a very bad deal and causing her life to be in danger not that bad right nope wrong... Now Lee has to be involved regardless cause its his sister's best friend. And top it all off with a nice bow Lee decided that he was interested in Indy he wants to be in a relationship with her. Now this book has drove me up the walls. First of all i loved Indy and Ally they are quite the pair. Now as much as i loved Indy i wanted to just slap her senseless this girl puts the dis in obedient.. Because of her lovely and big mouth there are a mob of evil bad guys hot on her trail. Which leads into her asking Ally her best friend to find a place to hide in for a couple days. She sends her to Lee's house like girl is cray seriously I had a feeling that he was going to pop in at anytime. Folks lets take a wild guess who popped in the middle of the night and dragged Indy out of bed like a criminal..that's right Lee. Now Lee is a very debatable situation. At times i hated the way he talked to her. At other times (...which is a lot ) he understands her and is the only person that can handle all her craziness. That guy likes to boss people around no joke seriously. Anyways he offers Indy a proposition he helps Rosie her employee and he gets her to be his girlfriend. Honestly there are some moments where i'm just like dude you could have done that way way better like come on.... he like demanded to have sex with her when before he said he saw her as a sister. Come on a girl can only take so much rejection and humiliation. He then waltz's in and is like i'm done playing your games and stuff....huh? last time i checked he was the one that stated he didn't see her like that and if you are so determined you should have grabbed her from the moment you came back. You could have gave her something to hold onto until you came back. Anyways enough with the ranting. I think this book is great if you are in need of some adventure and suspense (although i kind of figured out what was going on most of the time.. but that's probably cause i'm cuckoo like that.....) This book is great and is one of a very long series it follows every body introduced in Rock Chick...seriously.... It will have you laughing so hard, wanting to slap someone, or just swooning a little or a lot depends on you. Quote time .. 

“For what it’s worth, I’ll share my intentions. You and me, we aren't practice for the real thing. It isn't that too much is at stake with family and friends, it’s because I love you. You’re funny, beautiful and you care about people. I like the way you look at me, especially when you think I don’t notice it. I like that we have history and our kids will have a big family and share that history because there was never a time when their Mom and Dad weren't together. If you were a terrible lay, I might have second thoughts but you and I are dynamite together. I intend to marry you and spend the rest of my life with you. If that freaks you out, tough, because now we've started this, there’s no goin’ back.”-Lee ( he can be romantic if he tried) 
― Kristen Ashley, Rock Chick 

“We’re not exactly together and were not, not together. We’re in together-limbo. We’re test-driving together to see if we want to buy it.” 

Hilarious  “Girlie, I'm from Texas. We shoot at each other to say good morning.” 

Shine Not Burn

So i know i have been a little slow with reviews but i'm getting there i read a lot recently and can't wait to talk about it. So the book that i'm going to talk about is Shine Not Burn By Elle Casey. *Contains Spoilers* Now this book was one of those pull-your-hair-yell-at-your-reader type of book. Now we meet Andie who works at a law firm and has the worst taste when it comes to guys. She goes to Vegas for one of her best friends bachelorette party. Now years later she wants to get married but can't because she found out that she was already married. So she packs everything and goes to have a negotiation with her supposed husband. ....Whew let me tell you people this girl as much as i loved her character as much as i wanted to shake some sense into her. She has this insane idea of her life plan. She wants to become partners in her law firm at 20 something. Then have kids at thirty. If everybody tried to set up their life like her we would be like robots going on about life without any passion or life in us. What she doesn't realize is life will never let you do things your way. When she went with her friends to Vegas i felt that she was finally starting to realize that her life isn't one big planner and she should take things one step at a time.  Oh my gosh i totally loved Mack that was a guy who knew what he wanted and fought for it till the end. Now we never really find out whats his surprise was for her. We then fast forward to a couple years later and we find out that she is no longer talking to her best friends. So we were like what could possibly have happened. Well she chose the wrong guy for her again and is going to marry him. We find out from Ruby her secretary that he was the reason why she doesn't talk to her friends anymore. He is an arrogant dude. Anyways she goes to talk to Mack and try to get a divorce from him. Of course he doesn't want to. She doesn't remember much from that night. She grows really close to his family and they don't really know why she's there. Basically the reason why she has this life plan because she was hurt because of her mom's boyfriend. She felt that was the only way to gain some control over her life. OHH i wanted to slap that country barbie ugh ...what was her name oh Hannah. That girl was infuriating she popped up everywhere. But they eventually work their problems together. I freaking loved this book. But seriously though the wedding vows they wrote for each other was so hysterical i can't. Quote Time.... “Come on, wife. Come take a little ride with me. Let me show you all the things you'll be missing when you go back East and leave me here with a broken heart.”-Mack to Andie  “Andie: "Why can't you just let me go?" Mack: "I can't let you go because you're mine.”
 OOOhh this book i swooned and laughed and teared just perfection.  You all should go and read it now.... thats an order !

Life Altering Beautiful

So this book is like a freaking roller coaster ride... It talks about a girl named Seven who moved across the country abandoning her past and trying to make a new future for herself. She has a very spunky roommate who's going to be a great part of her life. As per her roommate suggestion they go to a frat party and there she meets Stone. Her roommates brother. From the moment they laid eyes on each other there was this instant connection. Now Stone is known for being.. hold your horses your typical bad boy. Yup now how can a girl resist bad boy..not me. Now Stone is interesting.. of course he has his secrets and he sees seven and he immediately wants to know her better. Seven knows Stone's type, you know the ones that leave you with a broken heart. Which is something that she's trying to steer clear from. At first they take it slow, just as friends. Now me and the whole universe know that when they say "just friends", it never works out that seriously. Tammy knows that her brother is a man whore and basically says to her not to try any funny business with him because he doesn't do commitment. Of course her response to that was were just friends.....nope not anytime soon. So things get heated with them and Stone wants her to realize that there is something between them. Now all while Seven is starting this friendship with Stone and Tammy, shadows of her past are infiltrating in her current life.  One specific guy from her past keeps popping up through the story and i wanted to slap Trent. He was obnoxious and such a sleaze. Of course Tammy likes to be rebellious so she becomes interested and they start going out. This comes as a shock to Seven because its like a mortifying nightmare. She and Tammy get into a huge argument which leaves a huge dent in their relationship. Now if my friend were to tell me that this guy was evil or bad ... i wouldn't think twice about. There's a lot of bumps in the road like when Stone was about to graduate but didn't tell her. When there was a girl who answered Stone's phone. Ugh just so much the ending though i totally didn't understand i felt like there should have been a better way to end the story. It ended so abruptly and then it moved on to the Epilogue which was five years later and then that ended very strange. There should have been a better way to end the story. If the ending was better it would have changed the book.  

Spark By Brooke Cumberland

    Okay now here is another book that has blown my mind and left me crying                         after it was done. *Warning Warning Cliff Hanger* 
The book talks about our lovely heroine Velaney Wills who has a lot of hurt and anguish in her. She steers away from a relationship because she feels that she is too damaged and nobody wants damaged goods. Enter Eric Reilley who is a firefighter and is too good to be true. i shall leave you there and you have to go read it for your selves TTFN (Ta Ta for Now ). Well boys and girls this book started off with a burning inferno of desire, no really it started of with an inferno, meaning the building was on fireee. And of course because this is a novel although i wish it was real life a very delicious firefighter who so happens to be off duty and lives in her building and on the floor beneath her, rescues her. When this fire happens it was laundry day meaning Mr. Gorgeous firefighter saw her in a little lacy nightie yikes!! Anyways even after he saved her, he wants to get to know her a little bit better. And can i throw in how much i love Carissa, she really was a strong force in this story.  OH MY GOSH Carissa i can't, the things she says to Velaney "you really need a visit from the pussy fairy", i was rolling on the floor in happy tears. Velaney got her trust broken by the most close to her heart. What devastates her even more is that her own parents aren't there when she needs them to be. *dun dun dun another spoiler read at your own risk, don't say i didn't warn you* Aiden her brother has been sexually abusing her since she was eight, it all started when she accidentally crushed in front of her pastor mother. After she got reprimanded Aiden told her she needs to be punished and did the most unimaginable thing. Velaney always has this constant fear or disgust  towards cursing or swear words in general. Let's take a wild guess as to why, the most thing that infuriates is that how can her own brother claim her as his as if she is some property. Eric is seriously the most perfect guy for her or in general. Aiden continues to make life for them hard, constantly stalking them and making the relationship between Eric and her even harder. And the ending ahhhh i like had a panic attack.... On a lighter note my most favorite parts of the book was  when she sang to him for the first time to get him back. When they see each other for the first time. Quote Time...  “You were worried about me, sweetheart? Well, aren't you a doll.”-Eric to Velaney “I’m a firefighter. We don’t…usually knock,”-Eric  “I’m starting to think you just like me rescuing you.” -Eric .. People this book is overall a squeal worthy book seriously.... 

Spiral

So your girl here went a little crazy these past couple of days with books. Seriously like there is just too many good books out there, like i'm loving all of the authors out there. Anyways onto the reviews.....

So the first book that i read this past couple of days is called Spiral by Mila Ferrera. Ugh this book...Amazing. Its about a Psychology student named Nessa. She's interning at a hospital and has always had this work hard attitude. At the hospital she meets a very interesting doctor named Aron and there i shall leave it *insert evil laugh*. Now can i start off by saying that this book is like awesome. You know you are reading a good book when you can cry, clutch your chest and laugh your butt off all in the same sitting. As much i love reading about more emotional context, i love some comedy relief. Now i love how driven she is and how strong although the circumstances shes been in aren't the most ideal. At the same time i felt like she should deserves love and i'm so glad that she finally realizes. *spoiler alert* (read at your own risk) Now the reason she doesn't like to be involved is because of her father being bipolar and her fear that the constant roller coaster of a relationship could trigger some symptoms. The irony in this story is ...no words. Both characters were so unique and were able to pull the best out of each other. Aron is an amazing character. I like loved him seriously. There were so much growth for him as a character. Now when we found out he was bipolar i was like " I KNEW IT SERIOUSLY", especially when he was a man whore for a good chunk of his time. The whole time i'm reading and it's like Real by Katy Evans (Awesome book by the way go check it out). Except he knows how to deal with it. Aron he had no idea and just kept going on. The thing i love about this book is that it was so realistic it wasn't all butterflies it was tough. For Nessa seeing the man she loves in pain and him refusing to drag her down with him. One of my favorite scenes is the Halloween Scene it was so funny and sweet and sexy ughhh. The fact that they both dressed up as vikings and had no clue..... squeee overload. Quote time.... "Always do the thing that scares you"-Nessa's Dad. "You're biased i'm wearing a corset" - Nessa to Aron.
 “It wouldn’t have worked because I feel more for you than I ever have for anyone, and anything we do together isn’t me using you!” He squeezes his eyes shut and sets his forehead on mine. “It’s me, giving myself to you.”-Aron to Nessa. Can i just end it by saying you shall swoon and cry and have mini anxiety attacks and too many feels. If you liked Real By Katy Evans you will like this although this doesn't have an MMA fighter but he's just as strong and swoony.

Fading & Killing Sarai

  

 Over the course of the few days, I have finally read really good and swoon worthy books. All three books deal with serious issues such as rape, drugs, abduction, and etc. For me personally, i usually read really dark books which I tend to find that those kind of books always affect me in the deepest and emotional ways. This is about a girl who is raped and her struggles for her survival.
 The first book is Fading By E.K. Blair which tackles the topic about rape and the numerous effects it has on the person after it occurs. Let me just say that E.K. Blair wrote this so realistically and vividly that I felt the character's pain and her confusion. The unfortunate thing is that most sexual assaults and rape cases are caused by people who you know or are acquainted with. When you realize it, it's pretty scary to think about i mean these people are supposed to be people you know and trust.  I loved the fact that she didn't sugar coat the trauma and the modification it does to the physical and mental aspect of the human mind and body. Candace is such a strong,mature character who doesn't easily give in. For her to just keep on trying to survive instead of giving up is something that not a lot of people can do when they go through such a traumatic event. Not only that, but she also had a lot of courage for trying where on the other hand some other people would just shut down and let the trauma to take over.  There were scenes where i was literally holding my hand to my chest and my hands were shaking with fear. In addition, I also loved the little karma that was thrown in there but, I won't spoil that for you. The only thing i didn't like was that she didn't tell her best friend that she was raped which to me made no sense because she is supposed to be there for her and let her know whats going on in her life she is her best friend. I think its such a good read but you should have a happy, more riveting book to follow up with because let me tell you it drains all your energy and gives you the shivers.   

Now moving along to this crazy thrilling roller coaster that's called Killing Sarai By J.A. Redmerski.  OH HOLY TAMALES. Where do I even begin with this book. *sigh* J.A. Redmerski you have blown my mind yet again. This book follows Sarai a girl who was captured and brought to Mexico, where she is under the influence of Javier a Mexican drug lord. Now let me tell you this book was going to give me a heart attack. When she finally decides to escape she escapes with a Hit man or assassin. But let me tell you this girl has balls okay. Normally one would assume that she is this introvert dainty thing, but no she will pistol whip you if you come near her. I freaking loved that. And can i say i fell for the no emotion man that is named Victor. See here's the thing even though he was cruel and didn't show any emotion, there was still parts of his humanity. For example he put her to sleep instead of having his way with her. There were numerous times when he could have killed her but he didn't. *spoiler alert* They both share a connection, they both were taken at such young ages and were forced to adapt. Because they both were so young they developed this sort of numbness towards pain and violence. But let me tell you this book was crazyyy *insert Brittney Spears Crazy here*. First off i wanted to kill Izel and i have no remorse for the pain she suffered. Its like Nan in Fallen Too Far there is no feelings there. You just stare at your e-reader and your like "well its about time someone shut you up". I have to say though i loved the fact that Sarai had a backbone. Like on so many occasions she would argue with Victor and the whole time i'm like "don't piss him off, he might actually kill you this time". I had such conflicted feelings at one point i actually start to worry for her safety and at another point i'm like its okay its just Victor he'll protect you i hope. I love it when they finally realized feelings for each other it wasn't like "my soul mate let's go get married and have 2.5 kids". It was more realistic, than that, considering the circumstances they are in.And when they slept with each other, it was such an intimate moment. He didn't want to hurt her or her trust. (spoiler alert) Like even when he had to find the tracking device, and she was screaming bloody murder, which i would totally do if i was  in her place.  He leaned over her and told her "do you trust me" and she was like "i do". And i just sat there took a breather and squealing at my book. A thing that i don't like in some NA books is the overuse of the word "babe" and "baby" and thank god that didn't happen in this book. I love the endearment but when used frequently in 90% of NA books i tend to get sick of it. Now one of my favorite scenes was when that bastard of a brother goes to the hotel room and her tries to kill her the whole time im like "hold up hold up she defended him in front of Victor and stuff and now he wants to kill her " I swear i can't even tell you how many times my parents or siblings just looked at me like i have a few screws loose. That's when you know a book is good when you start yelling at it or squealing or crying. Now when Victor pieced together that the client wasn't coming and his brother fooled him the whole time i'm praying to God he gets there in time. At first i was confused when Sarai didn't let Niklas in, and then it hit me she had a feeling he was going to kill her. OH Allah and when she gets shot " Victor, don’t kill him!” I manage to shout through the pain. 
   He blinks back into focus having been momentarily lost in a blind rage, and he glances at me. 
   “Please, don’t kill him,” I repeat in a soft, desperate voice. 
   “He tried to kill you,” he says, looking at me with a confused expression as though he can’t believe what I’m saying. “He shot you.” “Victor, he’s your brother. He’s only here because he was trying to protect you.” (pg 259). Ah i swear it killed me. All in all this book is a life changer for sure. 

A Year In Europe

So I recently read A Year in Europe by Rachel Hawthorne. And let me tell you guys this book is like a round trip in a book. It literally awakened so many things in me. The book revolves around three friends. Robin,Dana,Carrie all are in the year aboard program. Each girl has a country that they have chosen. Robin chose London. Dana chose Paris. And Carrie chose Italy.  In the story we follow each girl and find out what their goals are....But most importantly who they will fall in love with. Okay  enough formal talk.... Now the plot was so  interesting. I'm a sucker for books revolving around foreign countries and most importantly foreign boys. Each character is unique in their own ways. Robin is your made in Texas girl. From her thick southern drawl to her father being a farmer.
Dana is more of a artsy chic with flair. She draws has hopes of joining Disney and has a fashion sense. And lastly we have Carrie she is your hardworking girl. She always embraces life. Although i felt that the last story was kind of rushed and didnt have enough depth i still enjoyed the book for the other two stories. I think this book is a great book to read if you miss the summer like i do or simply wants to have an easy read. This book is a breeze to read.